my intro to findom

I am a naturally submissive man. But all my life the sub feelings were closeted. I lived by society ruls and typically suite the tag of middle class vanilla man. As i got into my 30's and into the later 30's my feelings grew. I wanted to experience, something and somehow. No more feeding off cheap material. Well, easier said then done, this i realized in the following days and months. Anyway, to get to the point, one day surfing on the net for the femdom material, i found a site called collar me. Very interesting site i thought. Again, going back once more, i was never in contact with an actual mistress, my relief mainly came from internet material. But i did not write a direct message may be for six months after, i was nervous and not sure. Any way, one day, i sent my first message, then few more before i got a reply. The feeling was very good, response from real person, a Mistress, got me excited.

But that excitement was short lived, after few interactions, excitement turned to confusion, i did not know who was real and who was not. I knew about professional dominatrix
where they charge and conduct sessions. It was a service but i was not interested in that as most of them from my little understanding are not really dominant and mostly act for that duration. I was away from the site for many months. But eventually i did come back, this time armed with some more knowledge. More about my fetishes in later blogs. Since i started with liking to feet, i ingrained various fetishes, i liked them but never did i understand "findom" and how that worked, if it worked at all. Next few months, i interacted with quite a few findom Mistresses but really never dared to pull  out my wallet, but i should say i went to close to the hilt but receded as fast.

One day while browsing casually, i came across a profile. I had to stop and just stare at the perfection, i don't know for how long. No face pic, it was only neck area, but still it made a great impact on me. Without a second thought i sent a message. At that time, i was not sure what i wanted or what to expect...but that is only if i got a reply back.....